This blog is a way to document and share my progress and struggles with my recovery with an eating disorder, self harm, depression, anxiety and drug/alcohol issues.
My goal is to get through my struggles and help others in the future.
May be triggering.
OH MY GOD IF AUTO CORRECT CHANGES ‘SO’ TO ‘DO’ ONE MORE TIME I SWEAR TO GOD I WILL go back and change the d to s
Anorexia nervosa fucks you up from the inside and out. It fucks up your head, your personality, your body, your sanity, your skin, your hair. It eats you from the inside until there is nothing left. You become your disease, it will be what people think when they see you. The only things that goes around in your head is how you are going to skip the next meal without anyone knowing, how you will lose weight quicker, how fat and ugly you are, how you are going to dress to hide all the fat that’s not really there, how you are going to cover up the fact that you’re sick to the bone. People will leave you, but those who stay and tries to help you are only in the way if they break your system. You will beat yourself up if you eat more than what you had planned, you will not be able to sleep at night, you will cry of disgust when you look at yourself in the mirror, your self-hatred will be bigger than the universe itself. You’re living in a hell and you can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel unless you allow someone to lead you there. Even tho you don’t believe it when you’re in it, but there is a life after anorexia nervosa. I’ve been there and I got out, but I woulnd’t if I didn’t got the help I needed.
(Source: multicolors)
Do u think i had an eating disorder on the right picture or on the left?
BOTH!
It doesn’t mean you’re fat or thin. You can have a eating disorder in both situations. On the right picture i was thinking of eating 24/7, but i was thinking 24/7 about food on the left picture too. An eating disorder isn’t about how much you weigh, it’s about what’s happening in your head.
